Another normal day !!

Dear blog,

*sigh* .. Yeah just another regular day .. 

I'm actually on a holiday now for 3 weeks yay !! Yeah !! 3 weeks off from college and its stuff !! And the 1st week of it is almost finished .. 

mmm ... Let me summarize what I've done in it .. 

Thinking about it , I've only went to Al Ain 😂😂😂 . Hahaha ..

Yeah so I went to Al Ain . Done some shopping ( lots and LOTS of clothes ) in Al bawadi mall ❤️ ..

I also went to buy a new glasses In Al jimi mall ( medical ) cuz my old one is broke !! Yup .. My aunt is working there so she made some discounts for me hehehehe .. Family power !!!! Lol

What else ..? Mmmmm

Oh and I bought an iPhone 5s yeahhh !!! Kkkkk ! I really suffered to get the one that I wanted which is the silver with 32GB .. 

Luckily, I've found one -and it was the last piece- in Al bawadi .. Yeah thank god !! 

I'm so in love with it 😁😍 !!

Yeahhh and .. I think that's all .. Yup 

Nothing to add more

Looking forward for my 2nd week of the holiday 😁😊 

Xoxo

Bashayer 

Am I in Love ?!

Dear blog,




I've been super lazy these days , I don't know but I feel that my condition is getting worse and worse .. Don't know how I feel , don't know what to do ... I'm just stuck in these bold days !

It feels that I'm ruining my life with all my ridiculous behaviors and my stupid feelings toward people !! I'm just sick of All of that !!

I hate when my heart makes me do stupid things ! it just makes me feel like a completely idiot !!

it really drives me crazy ! literally CRAZY !

and I think it's because that .... I've ....  fallen in love ....

I met this person who's I'm seeing as my friend/big bro and I just ...... liked him ! without any expectations !! like I wasn't interested on him at all and then BOOM I'M IN LOVE !! WTF !!

we've chat several times and we got to know a little bit about each other but... I'm afraid that he's using me like a toy ! that he'll chat with me only when he's bored ! that he doesn't give a f**k about me ! that he thinks I'm annoying ! that he thinks I'm just another stupid weird girl !

but.. when we chat , he makes me feel like he's interested on me/ has feelings for me even though he said that he sees me as his lil sister !! but he still say these words that makes me feel the opposite !

all of that makes me go crazy !!

I just can't ignore it.. and I can't stop thinking about it .. I'm not sure if I'm doing all of that just to feel like I'm in love or something like that ...

it just My pride , It's on the edge of being destroyed/stepped on ..

I just ... don't know anymore !!
............

what the heck am I saying ?! seriously ! what's wrong with me ?!



I think I'll just forget about him ! I'm just sick of crushing all over the place  !!
just.... ... I don't care !
It'll just gonna hurt me more and more and make me get worse !


just f**k it !




I'm done with that !