One fucking year and five months !!

Dear blog,


I ..... don't know wht to say to be honest hhhhhhh it's been a long fucking time!!! 
I mean really ONE YEAR AND 5 MONTHS !! daaamn !

I dunno why i guess i felt sick of writing? maybe. It's just I'm a really lazy person lol nd I admit it !

A LOT of shit happened in my life throughout the period i've been away from u !
hmmm where to start ??
Gosh ! i'm just gonna say wht popps in my mind !
ok so we went to the Philippines in the last summer holiday ! and it was AWESOME ! I loved it there so much ! i didn'tt want to return to Oman to be honest :( but wht to do. we also went to Thailand which was superrrrrrrrrrrr AMAZING literally !! i really mean it ! I kinda forget that we're here for a holiday lol the places there were so awsome ! ofc full of shopping stores ! let alone the night life !!!!!!!! I really wanna go back there :( maybe next year?

the sad part of our trip was the death of my grandmother. she passed away at our last day in the Philippines nd that made it even worse ! it was so horrible to see my mom in that miserable condition.
may she rest in peace.

the moment we returned to Oman, I was still in my "Travel mode" lol I wasn't ready to let go their lifestyle. so I decided to do wht i wanna do here too.
the trip really made me embrace the fact I'm half Filipino nd Omani. tbh before, I didn't like it whn people ask me if i was Omani or not because of my face *I take a lot of my mom's side*

but after the trip, I loved myself!! I thanked god for being half Filipino. really! I was proud of myself. so I decided to represent myself in other way, as a Half Filipino and Half Omani! I wanted everyone to know from where I am. I didn't care of wht people are gonna say. so I changed my clothes. tbh abayas were bothering me when I go to college plus they were boring nd they didn't represent any of me.  
so I started wearing long black skirts with different tops each day just to not make it boring. :P
of course, people stared at me whn i wore that for the first time and I was hesitating abt it but I was like fuck them! amma wear wht I wanna wear nd screw everyone!!

some of the girls started talking behind my back but actually they were saying some nice stuff abt my new "appearance" lol. how did I know? my roommate heard them gossiping hhhhhh

anyhow now college is wayyyyy more fun :) cuz I finally changed my goddamn major !!!! I dunno if I told u before abt it XD
but yeah I'm officially in college of Engineering !!! hell yeah baby !!

I'm already tired from writing lol sorry.
I'll talk abt the rest tomorrow insha'alla :D I really hope tho lol
cuz I still have A LOT to write nd this post is getting way too long hhhhh

so yeah 
hasta la vista bitchos <3



  

Another normal day !!

Dear blog,

*sigh* .. Yeah just another regular day .. 

I'm actually on a holiday now for 3 weeks yay !! Yeah !! 3 weeks off from college and its stuff !! And the 1st week of it is almost finished .. 

mmm ... Let me summarize what I've done in it .. 

Thinking about it , I've only went to Al Ain 😂😂😂 . Hahaha ..

Yeah so I went to Al Ain . Done some shopping ( lots and LOTS of clothes ) in Al bawadi mall ❤️ ..

I also went to buy a new glasses In Al jimi mall ( medical ) cuz my old one is broke !! Yup .. My aunt is working there so she made some discounts for me hehehehe .. Family power !!!! Lol

What else ..? Mmmmm

Oh and I bought an iPhone 5s yeahhh !!! Kkkkk ! I really suffered to get the one that I wanted which is the silver with 32GB .. 

Luckily, I've found one -and it was the last piece- in Al bawadi .. Yeah thank god !! 

I'm so in love with it 😁😍 !!

Yeahhh and .. I think that's all .. Yup 

Nothing to add more

Looking forward for my 2nd week of the holiday 😁😊 

Xoxo

Bashayer 

Am I in Love ?!

Dear blog,




I've been super lazy these days , I don't know but I feel that my condition is getting worse and worse .. Don't know how I feel , don't know what to do ... I'm just stuck in these bold days !

It feels that I'm ruining my life with all my ridiculous behaviors and my stupid feelings toward people !! I'm just sick of All of that !!

I hate when my heart makes me do stupid things ! it just makes me feel like a completely idiot !!

it really drives me crazy ! literally CRAZY !

and I think it's because that .... I've ....  fallen in love ....

I met this person who's I'm seeing as my friend/big bro and I just ...... liked him ! without any expectations !! like I wasn't interested on him at all and then BOOM I'M IN LOVE !! WTF !!

we've chat several times and we got to know a little bit about each other but... I'm afraid that he's using me like a toy ! that he'll chat with me only when he's bored ! that he doesn't give a f**k about me ! that he thinks I'm annoying ! that he thinks I'm just another stupid weird girl !

but.. when we chat , he makes me feel like he's interested on me/ has feelings for me even though he said that he sees me as his lil sister !! but he still say these words that makes me feel the opposite !

all of that makes me go crazy !!

I just can't ignore it.. and I can't stop thinking about it .. I'm not sure if I'm doing all of that just to feel like I'm in love or something like that ...

it just My pride , It's on the edge of being destroyed/stepped on ..

I just ... don't know anymore !!
............

what the heck am I saying ?! seriously ! what's wrong with me ?!



I think I'll just forget about him ! I'm just sick of crushing all over the place  !!
just.... ... I don't care !
It'll just gonna hurt me more and more and make me get worse !


just f**k it !




I'm done with that !








  

Ahhh College life,boys,people and Me !

Dear blog ,



How are you ?? ( what kind of questions is that loool XD )
well I wanted to write or update you about my life here in College .

I'm just ............ tired from all this SHIT !! 
sorry for the bad words ..I've been in a hard times these days because of the mid-terms ,my grades ,people here !
I'm just stressed from all of that !!

*sigh*

Anyway , what a great introduction for this post ..
what am I doing these days ?
studying .. Kind of ..

I'm trying to study but the conditions around me does not help me at all !
 PEOPLE, BOYS,LOUDLY ROOMMATES,LONELINESS,SECRET CRUSH !!!!!!!!
all of that :(

I started hating boys because of their attitude towards not only me but towards all the girls !
They are just EMOTIONLESS ,RUDE and IMMATURE !!
Don't they know that we - girls- are super sensitive !
just........... I don't freakin know how they live their lives ..
that's the reason why I love and respect foreigners .. they are truly gentlemen ..
( of course not all of them )

Anyhow , *sigh * 
I think that I should look at the bright side . Like , I finally finished high school and all that crap . Plus college life is kind of fun if u compared it to school .. 

yup I think that I should just be positive and try to overcome those shits ..


FIGHTING ~! 







" Life is great without a care "   - Lorde .

UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE !!! I missed my blog 보고 싶었어 T___T

Dear my AWESOME blog !! ,

I'm really REALLY sorry for not writing far A WHILE !! I AM really sorry ..No, It's not because school lol .. I have a new excuse now hehehe It's because the collage ! yup .. 

You know the feeling of being in a completely new place without knowing anything or anyone !! yup it's the worst feeling ever T____T .. That was the feeling that I felt when I entered SQU ( Sultan Qaboos University ) .. 

What made that feeling even worse is that I expected A LOT of things or let's say DIFFERENT things at SQU .. And as they say " Higher expectations , big disappointments " *sigh * الحمدلله على كل حال  .. that's all I can say >___< 

Anyway , as the days passes , I started to get use to the place here ! Before I was completely like a LOST puppy lol .. But now I know where to go ,where's this place and where's that !!

Thank god ^^

Not to mention the studying and being in a class with boys and encountering lots of boys .. That's just TOO much for me .. to be honest I'm afraid form boys especially THAT kind of boys * you know* and from the seniors (both boys and girls) .. They look soooo scary O__O

Also I'm not used of seeing boys with " Kumma" "الكمة" .. because in our city boys don't wear it ! instead they wear "ghutrah" "الغترة" .. So it was awkward for me >___<

One important point is ....being  HOMESICK !! yes , because of that I always cry here especially before I go to bed .. ahhh I just miss my family and my friends , even though that I return every weekend to Al buraimi ..but still , being alone here hurts so much .. but I'm getting used to it right now .. It's been 2 months now since I started my collage year and I still have LOTS of years to go !! ahhhhhhhhhhhh !! ..  الله كريم 

So Is this enough for toady .. this weekend I stayed in Muscat .. I didn't return because I have a workshop in the ETS ( English and translating society ) I guess ~ And it's my first university club that I join !!!! YEAH !! ( working in getting rid of my compulsive shyness  hehehe ^^) .. 

That's all for today ! I hope and I really hope that I don't forget to update and write in my blog ^o^ I have many things to write but now I should go study . I have 2 mid-term exams next week =___= wish me luck ^^

xoxo

My 2nd trip to DUBAI !!

Dear blog,




Sooooo we finally went to DUBAI !! after maybe a year ? I don't know LOL
Our trip was on the 23rd of Augest .. 
And we only went to 2 places : Dubai mall and the dragon mart !

I wanted to go to Dubai mall just to buy wedge shoes/sneakers because I tried to find them here in Al Ain but I couldn't .. so I asked the shops about them and they told me that I would find them in Dubai ..
And they were RIGHT !! I did find them in Dubai mall but they were so expensive ㅠㅠ .. I didn't buy any of them because before we went to Dubai, I searched about them in the internet and I found them sooooo much cheaper ! ( of course because they r made in China !! LOL )

My brother found a lot of snapbacks there ! He always wanted to have a lot of them because he only have an old one but guess what he did .. He didn't buy any of them them !!! Why ? " they are so expensive ", he said .
well if I was in his shoes, I would buy at least one ..

We ended up buying books in Kinokuniya bookshop and this time I didn't buy mangas. I just bought 3 books which are : You're only a human , how to tell if your cat is planning to kill you and How to talk to anyone ..

After that we ate lunch !! yummy ~ Me and my sister ate in Soy a Chinese restaurant and my mom from a Thai restaurant (I don't remember what was its name ) and my brother and my uncle from Burger King ..

The food court ^^

.....

"Soy" restaurant 

Me and my sister launch ! It was delicious and not too expensive. It costed us 110dh  I guess .

And OMG !! Dubai mall is Full of handsome foreigner guys !! I was like O___O !! Everywhere I walk I found one especially Asians !! I was like crying inside me T__T !! *sigh*
I also found lots of Korean there ^^ hehehehe

SEGA entrance .It's SONIC !! 

and that's all ! I didn't take any pictures in rhe Dragon mart because I was super tired =__= It was a lot of fun in Dubai mall . I really wished if we stayed longer there T___T 

..
hope to go there again and stay for at least a day ^____^ DUBAI IS SOOO AWESOME !! I LOVE IT !!

XOXO

Sorry everyone ㅠㅠ ~

Dear blog,




OMG !! I'M SO SORRY GUYS !!
I know ~~~ It's been a looooong while since I update the blog ! I'm so sorry guys .. I've been soooo busy and maybe Lazy XD .. But yeah I've been really busy with all the school stuff and college ..and  A LOT of things happened during that time ...!!

One of these things is ... I got accepted in SQU ( a famous university in our country ) .. I was so happy .. My major is Nursing .. ^^
I'm soooooo EXCITED for college although I'm a little nervous because I'll meet new people the I don't know .. I'm actually shy to the people who I don't know but I'll try my best to get used to it ...
We also went to DUBAI !!!! IT WAS SUCH AN AWESOME TRIP !!! I'll post all the details in another post ^^ Stay tuned ~~

I'll do my best to update my blog ~ ^______^

Thank you guys ! 

XOXO << EXO's Album LOL

I want these Korean hoodies !!!!!

Dear blog ,




First of all , RAMADAN MUBARAK !!! مبارك عليكم الشهـــر 

Soooooo , yesterday our exams results came out and I'm soooo happy that I got an average of 93 !! Yayy ~ thank you god الحمدلله ~
Congratulation to everyone for the high grades !! ^_________^



Anyway,these days I've been addicted to these cute Korean hoodies !!! It's soooooo cute !! especially the ones that has ears with it ^__^  I really like it ..( plus the long ones ) ..

 

  I really want them ALL !! T___T 

sooooo CUTE !!

I've been looking for a good online store to buy from it the hoodies ( I can't find these kind of hoodies in our local stores so the only way to get them is from online stores ) ..

Well Ebay has a lot of cute hoodies but the problem with it is in the seller . I'm afraid to buy from it because I already got my money stolen last time I bought from it T____T .. So It all depends on the seller . Chinese seller are well known for being thieves so be careful when you buy from them online .

I searched online for another stores " Cheap stores XD " and I found this awesome store called "Coco fashion " . Their prices are ridiculously cheap !! plus the shipping fee is almost FREE !! How awesome is that ?!! Also it got what I want CUTE HOODIES !!!!! OMG !! 

THIS ONE !!! I really WANT IT !!!!!! ×___× 

It's only for $11.62 !!

However , ( yes there is a " But" ) The store is from Hong Kong . OK so ? 
so i'm a little bit afraid from buying from it but I found when I searched about it some positive reviews .. And that made me a little bit relived .. I tried to search for another websites but I'm still searching ..

Anyway , I think that I'm gonna buy from since I got a lot of positive reviews about it . YAY !^____^


And here's more pictures of cute hoodies ~ :

Al Khabisi shopping exhibition haul ~ ^o^

Dear blog,

Kya !!!!! this is my first Haul post ~ so EXCITED !! I wanted to post Daiso Haul few months ago but I could't T___T why? I don't know why *__*

Anyway , I was sooo  happy to go shopping in Al Khabisi Exhibition in Al Ain !! I'm really addicted to "shopping exhibition" ! I t has the coolest things there with great prices !! what I really like about it is the clothes and the accessories ^^ Also because it is full of CHINESE PEOPLE !! OMG !!! I love Asian people soooo much . I also learned a few phrases in Chinese just to talk to them ^___^ hehehe .. 

I went to the exhibition twice and I still want to go there again !! ( Shopaholic *__* ,yes I know  ) .. I really found lots of awesome ,cute , cool things there !! I couldn't decide which to buy !! I ended up with some accessories, phone covers ,a backpack , t-shirts and pants ( the first time I went there ).. 

The second time I went there, I bought a shoulder bag,nail polishes , a jegging and more t-shirts !!! obsessed with the t-shirts ^*^

My mom and my sister also bought some things there like cloths and accessories ..

AAAAnd here's what I bought :

cute zipper bracelet ^^

some pants ~

cute T-shirt!

The backpack and Micky t-shirt !

This is what I bought in the second time:

A luxury brown shoulder bag 

Cool Skull shirt .

another one .

There is a lot of things but I couldn't capture them with my phone camera ( Why ? I don't know XD )

anyway that's all for this post ^^ I think I'm gonna visit it again this Saturday Yoohoo !! but I'm broke T____T 

돈 없어  ㅠ  ㅠ ..

I'll talk to the Chinese people instead ^__^ haha~

See u again ~~ 

안녕

K-drama : Nail shop Paris

ahhh~ how I love the SUMMER HOLIDAY !!

And ...

이게 무슨 일이야 ?? What's happening ?? O_O

Dear blog ,



It's been a while, I know ^^ I'm sorry. But Don't worry ~ Why ?
Because ....
IT'S SUMMER HOLIDAY !!!!!
 YAY !!!

I've finally finished the fricking high school !!!!!!! how awesome is that ?!!!!
and now I'm planning for my future and my summer holiday ..

Well , to be honest I can't enjoy my holiday because I'm always thinking of my grades !
I'm afraid from getting grades under the 90s .. 
My WHOLE life depends on it .. I really wanted to study in Korea but unfortunately my country doesn't provide any scholarship to Korea T__T 

Anyway , I just hope  that I'll be accepted in my dream collage/university .. Please god please ~~~

as for the summer holiday... I already planned for it and here is what I've planned for ..:

1- LOSE WEIGHT !!!!! 
like I really REALLY want to lose some weight . I just want my weight to be in the 50s .. My current weight is 65 and yes it doesn't suit my height ( 158cm ) .. sooo yes I"M GONNA LOSE SOME FRICKING WEIGHT AND YOU'LL SEE !!!!!!!!!!!! 

2- LEARN KOREAN !!!
You already know how I'm obsessed with Korea + KPOP <3 .. and I already know some Korean ..
I hope that by the end of the summer holiday I'll master the Korean language ^^ 

3- LEARN SOME KPOP DANCES !!! 
Yes It's for weight loss .. OK OK  It's true that I wanna learn it to lose weight but it is also to have fun! yes to have fun ~^o^ ^o^ ^o^~ 

4- mmmmm.....mmmm.... I don't know .. oh right !! GO TO KOREA !!! which is IMPOSSIBLE T___T 
I'll just dream about it ..

And yeah .. That's probably what I planned for ... I know I know .. IT'S SUMMER HOLIDAY PEOPLE !!!  I should be out all the day but ..... 

this is REALITY T____T  *sign* 

Well at least I finished high school and I'm gonna start my collage life YAY !!! but I still miss my school days with my friends and my classmates .. *sign* I MISS YOU GUYS !! T___T

well that's all for now .. I'll be more active now .. I'll try my best to update it as possibaly as I can  ..

Bye ~ 

It's farewell ... T__T

Dear blog,






*sob sob sob *

Today was the most heart breaking day ! We finally graduated from High-school !

It's really sad to say goodbye to my friends and my classmates T___T .. Just imagining my life without them make me cry ..

Nooooo !! Noooo !! Noooo !!

My crazy friends ~ I'll miss you !! a lot !! .


I still can't believe that I'll never go to school again !!


* sob sob sob *

And My teachers !!! LOVE YOU ALL !! <3<3<3



Thank you for everything :'(
God bless you all ! It was really the craziest , most beautiful year in my whole life :'(
I thank god for meeting you guys .. 

يارب إجمعني بهم في الجنة ..




Your sister,friend,classmate,
      Bashayer Al Naimi .

러브블러썸 ...~

"팝콘 같은 꽃잎이 저 높이 날아요
사랑한다 말하면 난 정말 녹아요
오늘 같은 바람이 불면 하루 종일 미치겠어그대가 아른아른 거려서 .."
                                       - K.will

Well ... I just LOVE this song .. ^_^ ..




Sooo ..
I know you guys are here , right ? My classmates where r u ?? 
he he he he ho



Days are passing so quickly . Our graduation is near and the exams , The goodbyes and .. and ..
Noooo I don't want that ..
But we can't do anything
.. This is the life .. I guess  T____T






P.S:

Nouf !!
Thank you for the letter .. You are truly a great person .Don't
underestimate on yourself .. you are more than what you think ..
You'r not a weak person . Please Nouf Believe in yourself and have faith .. Accept yourself and try to improve it .. And always remember , I'm with you no matter what ..
Stay strong ,ok ?

picture of the day :