Another normal day !!

Dear blog,

*sigh* .. Yeah just another regular day .. 

I'm actually on a holiday now for 3 weeks yay !! Yeah !! 3 weeks off from college and its stuff !! And the 1st week of it is almost finished .. 

mmm ... Let me summarize what I've done in it .. 

Thinking about it , I've only went to Al Ain 😂😂😂 . Hahaha ..

Yeah so I went to Al Ain . Done some shopping ( lots and LOTS of clothes ) in Al bawadi mall ❤️ ..

I also went to buy a new glasses In Al jimi mall ( medical ) cuz my old one is broke !! Yup .. My aunt is working there so she made some discounts for me hehehehe .. Family power !!!! Lol

What else ..? Mmmmm

Oh and I bought an iPhone 5s yeahhh !!! Kkkkk ! I really suffered to get the one that I wanted which is the silver with 32GB .. 

Luckily, I've found one -and it was the last piece- in Al bawadi .. Yeah thank god !! 

I'm so in love with it 😁😍 !!

Yeahhh and .. I think that's all .. Yup 

Nothing to add more

Looking forward for my 2nd week of the holiday 😁😊 

Xoxo

Bashayer 

Am I in Love ?!

Dear blog,




I've been super lazy these days , I don't know but I feel that my condition is getting worse and worse .. Don't know how I feel , don't know what to do ... I'm just stuck in these bold days !

It feels that I'm ruining my life with all my ridiculous behaviors and my stupid feelings toward people !! I'm just sick of All of that !!

I hate when my heart makes me do stupid things ! it just makes me feel like a completely idiot !!

it really drives me crazy ! literally CRAZY !

and I think it's because that .... I've ....  fallen in love ....

I met this person who's I'm seeing as my friend/big bro and I just ...... liked him ! without any expectations !! like I wasn't interested on him at all and then BOOM I'M IN LOVE !! WTF !!

we've chat several times and we got to know a little bit about each other but... I'm afraid that he's using me like a toy ! that he'll chat with me only when he's bored ! that he doesn't give a f**k about me ! that he thinks I'm annoying ! that he thinks I'm just another stupid weird girl !

but.. when we chat , he makes me feel like he's interested on me/ has feelings for me even though he said that he sees me as his lil sister !! but he still say these words that makes me feel the opposite !

all of that makes me go crazy !!

I just can't ignore it.. and I can't stop thinking about it .. I'm not sure if I'm doing all of that just to feel like I'm in love or something like that ...

it just My pride , It's on the edge of being destroyed/stepped on ..

I just ... don't know anymore !!
............

what the heck am I saying ?! seriously ! what's wrong with me ?!



I think I'll just forget about him ! I'm just sick of crushing all over the place  !!
just.... ... I don't care !
It'll just gonna hurt me more and more and make me get worse !


just f**k it !




I'm done with that !








  

Ahhh College life,boys,people and Me !

Dear blog ,



How are you ?? ( what kind of questions is that loool XD )
well I wanted to write or update you about my life here in College .

I'm just ............ tired from all this SHIT !! 
sorry for the bad words ..I've been in a hard times these days because of the mid-terms ,my grades ,people here !
I'm just stressed from all of that !!

*sigh*

Anyway , what a great introduction for this post ..
what am I doing these days ?
studying .. Kind of ..

I'm trying to study but the conditions around me does not help me at all !
 PEOPLE, BOYS,LOUDLY ROOMMATES,LONELINESS,SECRET CRUSH !!!!!!!!
all of that :(

I started hating boys because of their attitude towards not only me but towards all the girls !
They are just EMOTIONLESS ,RUDE and IMMATURE !!
Don't they know that we - girls- are super sensitive !
just........... I don't freakin know how they live their lives ..
that's the reason why I love and respect foreigners .. they are truly gentlemen ..
( of course not all of them )

Anyhow , *sigh * 
I think that I should look at the bright side . Like , I finally finished high school and all that crap . Plus college life is kind of fun if u compared it to school .. 

yup I think that I should just be positive and try to overcome those shits ..


FIGHTING ~! 







" Life is great without a care "   - Lorde .

UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE !!! I missed my blog 보고 싶었어 T___T

Dear my AWESOME blog !! ,

I'm really REALLY sorry for not writing far A WHILE !! I AM really sorry ..No, It's not because school lol .. I have a new excuse now hehehe It's because the collage ! yup .. 

You know the feeling of being in a completely new place without knowing anything or anyone !! yup it's the worst feeling ever T____T .. That was the feeling that I felt when I entered SQU ( Sultan Qaboos University ) .. 

What made that feeling even worse is that I expected A LOT of things or let's say DIFFERENT things at SQU .. And as they say " Higher expectations , big disappointments " *sigh * الحمدلله على كل حال  .. that's all I can say >___< 

Anyway , as the days passes , I started to get use to the place here ! Before I was completely like a LOST puppy lol .. But now I know where to go ,where's this place and where's that !!

Thank god ^^

Not to mention the studying and being in a class with boys and encountering lots of boys .. That's just TOO much for me .. to be honest I'm afraid form boys especially THAT kind of boys * you know* and from the seniors (both boys and girls) .. They look soooo scary O__O

Also I'm not used of seeing boys with " Kumma" "الكمة" .. because in our city boys don't wear it ! instead they wear "ghutrah" "الغترة" .. So it was awkward for me >___<

One important point is ....being  HOMESICK !! yes , because of that I always cry here especially before I go to bed .. ahhh I just miss my family and my friends , even though that I return every weekend to Al buraimi ..but still , being alone here hurts so much .. but I'm getting used to it right now .. It's been 2 months now since I started my collage year and I still have LOTS of years to go !! ahhhhhhhhhhhh !! ..  الله كريم 

So Is this enough for toady .. this weekend I stayed in Muscat .. I didn't return because I have a workshop in the ETS ( English and translating society ) I guess ~ And it's my first university club that I join !!!! YEAH !! ( working in getting rid of my compulsive shyness  hehehe ^^) .. 

That's all for today ! I hope and I really hope that I don't forget to update and write in my blog ^o^ I have many things to write but now I should go study . I have 2 mid-term exams next week =___= wish me luck ^^

xoxo

My 2nd trip to DUBAI !!

Dear blog,




Sooooo we finally went to DUBAI !! after maybe a year ? I don't know LOL
Our trip was on the 23rd of Augest .. 
And we only went to 2 places : Dubai mall and the dragon mart !

I wanted to go to Dubai mall just to buy wedge shoes/sneakers because I tried to find them here in Al Ain but I couldn't .. so I asked the shops about them and they told me that I would find them in Dubai ..
And they were RIGHT !! I did find them in Dubai mall but they were so expensive ㅠㅠ .. I didn't buy any of them because before we went to Dubai, I searched about them in the internet and I found them sooooo much cheaper ! ( of course because they r made in China !! LOL )

My brother found a lot of snapbacks there ! He always wanted to have a lot of them because he only have an old one but guess what he did .. He didn't buy any of them them !!! Why ? " they are so expensive ", he said .
well if I was in his shoes, I would buy at least one ..

We ended up buying books in Kinokuniya bookshop and this time I didn't buy mangas. I just bought 3 books which are : You're only a human , how to tell if your cat is planning to kill you and How to talk to anyone ..

After that we ate lunch !! yummy ~ Me and my sister ate in Soy a Chinese restaurant and my mom from a Thai restaurant (I don't remember what was its name ) and my brother and my uncle from Burger King ..

The food court ^^

.....

"Soy" restaurant 

Me and my sister launch ! It was delicious and not too expensive. It costed us 110dh  I guess .

And OMG !! Dubai mall is Full of handsome foreigner guys !! I was like O___O !! Everywhere I walk I found one especially Asians !! I was like crying inside me T__T !! *sigh*
I also found lots of Korean there ^^ hehehehe

SEGA entrance .It's SONIC !! 

and that's all ! I didn't take any pictures in rhe Dragon mart because I was super tired =__= It was a lot of fun in Dubai mall . I really wished if we stayed longer there T___T 

..
hope to go there again and stay for at least a day ^____^ DUBAI IS SOOO AWESOME !! I LOVE IT !!

XOXO